Does All This Make You Happy???

Last night, while eating dinner and writing my latest blog, I came across a book on my sister's bookshelf that really caught my eye. It wasn't one of those love novels or sex chronicles, it was more of an inspirational book if you must say. But what really caught my attention was the title of the book Repacking your Bags...I find this a very interesting title because I've always felt like I lived out of a suitcase, no matter where I went in life...as far as I could remember, I've never unpacked.

When I moved from home and went to college I lived in my suitcase, when I got married I was still living in a suitcase, and right as we speak I am still living in a suitcase. It's not that I don't have drawers to put my things in, but I've never felt the need to unpack, it's almost like I feel like I'm never settled.....So I picked the book up and decided to read it when I got chance to. Now when I was laying in bed last night, I began to ponder upon the pursuit of happiness, the holidays, having love and being loved...and I began to ask God to put someone in my life so I can feel love or be love, and when I started to ask that...I stopped myself in my tracks for a few reasons:

1. I am still technically married (legally)
2. God would never help me commit adultery

During that thought process, it was like God stopped me in my tracks and responded by saying (or put these thoughts in my head): (I'm paraphrasing) " Before you ask God to bring someone into your life so you can experience that happiness, ask him to help you gain happiness within yourself. If He was to bring someone into your life now, they would be temporary. Why would you want lots of Mr. Wrongs while you are trying to prepare yourself for Mr. Right??? All that is going to do is keep setting you back and prolong your blessing.

When that thought played in my head I had to jump up and grab my phone and write it down. How much truer could that statement have been. Why would I even think about asking God to put someone in my life right now, just for the thought of what happiness should be. Because in my head, the holidays are times you would spend with that special someone being happy and cuddling and I miss that ( there is nothing wrong missing those things) but "Does all this make you happy" No, because I am not happy within myself and I shouldn't count on another person to bring me that happiness. Happiness should come from within, not another individual....Which brings me back to the book:

Repacking your Bags: How to Live with a New Sense of Purpose

WOOOOOOWWWW what a powerful title and within the first couple of pages, I feel like it was created to speak to me. I could relate and I felt like I had some kind of insight on this crazy, scary journey I am about to take.

So for all of those who are not happy where they are in life, who are not happy with who they are, who wants more out of life than what they have...ask yourself this simple question:
"Does All This Make You Happy?"

And if it doesn't, pick up this book and start reading it, because it uses the metaphor of traveling and baggage to really demonstrate the load we carry around that we don't need to. I know I am only a chapter in this book, but it as blown me away within the first couple of pages and I know it will do the same to you.

Until then
Kisses xoxo